monday

so im sitting here alone in my room, crying ! im so stressed with eeverything.
my ex & i's breakup hurt me because i was really into the girl, you know. you know when your single for a very long time just waiting for the next RIGHT girl/boy & when you finally think you find them & then shit just goes wrong in every possible way. all i did was try & make us work since we lived very far from eachother. i put my part to please her & visit her as much as i can. but i never got that in return, instead she was a lazy bitch with me. i dont like lazy people. i can be lazy but never with my girl.

then the fact i dont have a job right now is making me upset, trust me i been looking & like noone is hiring now. everything is getting so harder, the situation here in the US is putting us all in serious trouble.

its so much shit thats going on with me that i just dont know what to do anymore. i was suppose to leave to philadelphia today but my family came to visit instead so ill be leaving pretty soon. i wont be back for like 1 or 2 weeks. i really need to get away from NEW YORK ! & people.

thanks for reading.

xoxo